The other day I meet with my Quilty Buddies
And I made a confession.
I was really feeling like it was time to stop quilting!
I had lost the joy.
I didn't feel like I had any creativity left.
I thought I was truly done.
They were shocked.
What was going on?
I shared how I had sorted through my stash
and had lots of fabric I needed to part with.
But I felt guilty because of the money
I had spent over the years,
the amount of fabric I had collected....
To justify these feelings,
I felt like I needed to sew up some of these piles into quilts.
I had picked a pattern, cut and sewed.
I thought my plan would be to create
something wonderful for someone.
To pass on many quilts.
But I felt myself losing the excitement
and joy I usually felt as I work on a project.
It was like walking through deep sticky mud.
Agggh!
I was quickly sinking.
Maybe I was done.
I mean, really done.
That's how I was feeling.
After lots of questions, my one friend said,
Lipstick on a pig, is still a pig.
She went on to say,
if I was using fabric I didn't love anymore,
why would the quilt I was making
be something I loved,
no matter what I did with it.
Was it as simple as that?
I think my friends were right in this case.
My heart wasn't in it.
It really had made me depressed.
Since then,
I have stopped that project,
bundled up all the piles
and made arrangements for a local sewing group
to take it and do their good works with it.
*****
Let it go, let it go
Some of my fabric is tired and old.
Try as I will
There just isn't a thrill.
Can't hold it back anymore
I need to pass it through another door.
I don't care what others may say
I don't want to sew with it another day.
I have felt guilty long enough.
It really is still good stuff.
Maybe someone else will find a joy.
So, the fabric is theirs to enjoy.
Let it go, let it go.
The decision has made me feel lighter
Sewing even seems brighter.
It's time to do what I love.
To dispose of, get rid of
The pieces from my overabundant stash.
That made me feel depressed and dashed.
I started a project, I really did try,
But then I started questioning why
I was unhappy and restless
I was not doing my bestess.
As time seems to be growing shorter
It was also time to stop being a hoarder.
I simply will never be able to use it all
But there are others who will be having a ball.
So, Let it go, let it go.
*****
And I have.
Until Next Time
Kyle
